Sunday, November 05, 2006

I'm here and I'm on the mend, my friend

I feel good.

I've felt like I was losing my mind. I haven't shaved in a few days. I feel better now.

I'm happy.

My birthday is on the 13th. I'm turning 19. I don't feel like it's my birthday. You all know how usually you can feel it coming. I don't feel it this time. I don't feel like I should be turning 19 anyway. 19, for some reason, seems a lot older to me than 18. When you turn 18 you're thinking "now I'm a legal adult, yay!" but 19, now I'm thinking "I've had a full year as a legal adult, now I really am an adult." I feel more official now. I can do whatever I want.

I've been thinking, in a couple years I should get my Private Investigator's License and start my own P.I. Company. I watched "Memento" (one of my favorite movies, you should see it) last night. Leaonard Shelby was an Insurance Claims Investigator, maybe I should look into that. I think I could do very well in that field.

I'm excited for the future. Everything is beautiful. Life is beautiful. I need a vacation though. I just want to get away for a little while and cut loose, kick back, not worry about anything.

I love the Christmas season. I don't remember how much I love it until it comes. I love walking around the mall, seeing all the people shopping, listening to the Christmas music they have playing, looking at all the extravagent decorations. I love the color of the sky at night when it snows. If you haven't noticed it, you should. The next time it snows look at the night sky. It's beautiful. It's one of those little things some people will never take pleasure in. I want to go all-out this holiday season. The whole nine yards. I want to go out with friends and look at lights. I want to go walking in the snow. I want to go sledding and build a snowman. I want to watch them light up Temple Square and go on a sleigh ride. I want to enjoy the company of everybody I love.

I miss my friends who have moved away.

I love life. I can't wait for what comes next.

I feel wonderful.

I'm going to go shave.

4 Comments:

At 10:33 PM, Blogger thesexyswede said...

iiii'm excited for the snowman idea! lol.

 
At 12:45 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

So help me... We are SOOOOO going deer humping this year.

 
At 3:22 PM, Blogger Sousa said...

haha, of course we are. We don't even have a choice in the matter

 
At 2:42 PM, Blogger shamae said...

Ah, the sky is like a lavender! That's the only time the WHOLE ENTIRE sky is that color. And the streetlights just magnify it. Mm, I wish it would snow out herrre.
I miss you!

 

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