Have I said all I can say?

When did things become so difficult? Did God up the ante or did I just get sloppy?

Something has changed, and I’m still playing catch-up. I knew things were changing, I thought change was good. Then I woke up and saw what I had gotten myself into. I made bad decisions for the wrong reasons. I know what mistakes I made but I can’t change those; and now I have to try and clean it up through the rubble, sometimes at the expense of others.

Sometimes I want to change the world, but right now there is only one thing I want to change. God knows I would give anything if I could do something about it; but God and I aren’t on speaking terms. Just when I thought I had things figured out, life throws me a curveball. Some people say that life is just a series of random events tied together by our own inner monologue. I disagree. Everything we do affects us later in life. Whether it’s a second or a decade later, it always has an impact.

I made some bad calls, but I thought it was the right move. I lied to myself so that I could move on with my life, now that has all come crashing back into reality. I know what I need to change. I just need to man up and do something about it. I won’t make the same mistakes. What have I got to lose?

Come on man, prove that you’re still worth a damn.

It must be your skin that I'm sinking in
It must be for real ‘cause now I can feel
And I didn't mind, it's not my kind
It's not my time to wonder why
Everything gone white, everything's grey
Now you're here, now you're away
I don't want this, remember that
I'll never forget where you're at

Don't let the days go by
Glycerin, Glycerin

I'm never alone, I'm alone all the time
Are you at one or do you lie?
We live in a wheel where everyone steals
But when we rise it's like strawberry fields
I treated you bad, you bruised my face
Couldn't love you more, you've got a beautiful taste

Don't let the days go by
Could've been easier on you
I couldn't change though I wanted to
Should have been easier by three
Our old friend fear and you and me
Glycerin, Glycerin
Don't let the days go by
Glycerin
Don't let the days go by
Glycerin, Glycerin
Glycerin, Glycerin

Bad moon white again
Bad moon white again
As she falls around me

I needed you more when we wanted us less
I could not kiss, just regress
It might just be clear simple and plain
Well that's just fine, that's just one of my names
Don't let the days go by
It could've been easier on you, you, you
Glycerin, Glycerin
Glycerin, Glycerin
-Glycerin
Bush