A storm is coming...
Have any of you ever felt like something really badd was coming? Some storm was brewing just out of sight but you knew it was headed straight for you? That darkness was growing and there was nothing you could do to stop it? I'm sure some of you have.
I bring this up because I have one of those feelings. A vague intuition that something is coming and it's going to tear apart the landscape of my life. Some irreversible line of fate that's preparing to change life as I know it. There's nothing that I hate more than the feeling of hopelessness, and right now, that's exactly what I am -- hopeless. Hopless to do anything because I don't know what's coming.
There's nothing I can do... I guess I'll jump that fence when I come to it. There'll be water if God wills it.
Anyway, just wanted to get that off my chest, thatnks for reading.
'So do we pass the ghosts that haunt us later in our lives; they sit undramatically by the roadside like poor beggars, and we see them only from the corners of our eyes, if we see them at all. The idea that they have been waiting there for us rarely if ever crosses our minds. Yet they do wait, and when we have passed, they gather up their bundles of memory and fall in behind, treading in our footsteps and catching up, little by little.'
-Stephen King, Wizard and Glass
'Each of us is all the sums he has not counted: subtract us into nakedness and night again, and you shall see begin in Crete four thousand years ago the love that ended yesterday in Texas. . . The seed of our destruction will blossom in the desert, the alexin of our cure grows by a mountain rock, and our lives are haunted by a Georgia slattern, because a London cutpurse went un-hung. Each moment is the fruit of forty thousand years. The minute-winning days, like flies, buzz home to death, and every moment is a window on all time.'
-Thomas Wolfe, Look Homeward, Angel